Simple Pleasures

I find it so amusing that I gain pleasure from watching Debbie suffer. She woke up Saturday morning soaking wet! It was great, it makes me feel funny in a good way waking up to a full diaper. I must say I do believe I need a Wav file specifically for diaper usage, bed wetting, and making a good mess. I know it probably seems so twisted and disgusting. Do not misunderstand this- I do not by any means get off to a soaked diaper. There is however, a specific joy I get from know how dependent she will be one day. I love the thought about her constantly thinking of me day in and day out because she is reminded of me every time she sits, stands, walks, crawls, wakes up, goes to sleep... you get the idea. I believe it will soon become a part of every day life, especially because  I will be investing in some soakers and day time diapers. I get mad at myself sometimes when I forget to put her in them right away. Tonight was a perfect example. We went to dinner and when we got home I was so busy finishing up some work that has to be done for tomorrow that I simply forgot to put her into her night time diaper. UGH! I am getting much more consistent and better at remembering things, although I am by no means perfect. I struggle every day with remembering simple things and I am hoping that this lifestyle will actually help that problem. Maybe once I'm not so stressed out I will be able to remember better :) .

I went shopping yesterday, it was so great to just buy her fun things. I am just wondering how drag queens find amazing pumps! I literally went to every store I could think of in town that would sell size 12 or 13 size shoes. Well I had no luck. I went to about seven stores total and then I looked up on my phone "where to buy size 13 women's heels??!" I was shocked to find "payless" was the most popular result! I thought that was kind of funny. Well I checked out a few other places before going there (payless is way farther than anyone store from my house) and had no luck at those places, I actually asked one of the sales clerks were to go and she suggested payless! I thought to myself, well shit at least if I go there the shoes will be so cheap I won't regret buying them. So I get to the store and am looking around in the enormous sizes of women's pumps, I'm amazed at how many decent selections they actually have! The sales clerk comes up to me with a confused look on his face and asks if I need help [obviously I looked lost, I'm rather petite with tiny feet ;P ] I tell him I'm just shopping for a girlfriend. I kind of chuckled too, he probably knew it was for a man. Maybe not?!  I don't know, I wanted to badly to blurt out " it's for my sissy slave bitch!" That could turn into a nightmare so I just kept quite! I must say I was impressed with the selection and actually bought two pairs of shoes for half the price I originally budgeted for! woo woo! I thought that was awesome! One of the pairs are about 4.5 inch pumps with patent leather, an open toe and sling back. The others are short, about 2 inch heels with black satin and a little bow detail! Super cutes ! I'll put pics up later. I also stopped by the lingerie store and got a super feminine nightie with lace down the front and it's "slimming" hehe, with plenty of room for fake boobs in the chest! Which I plan on purchasing soon! I am getting more excited every day! I cannot wait to get a cage for her to sleep in on the weekends. Obviously, she could not sleep in it on the weeknights, unfortunately :( . I can't deprive her of sleep on the weekdays because work is too important. I wish I could just keep her caged up all the time. Like my little specimen to do with whatever I please. :) I sound like a crazy bitch huh?

I have decided to make her another outfit! It's going to be super cute. I have this hot pink material that is really shiny and kind of like spandex but not as tight. I'm going to make her a corset 'looking' top that ties in the back and a fitted super mini skirt that her ass will hang out of. Maybe something like this will be good, mine will be hot pink though and sparkly! So much fun! I cannot wait!!! I do not necessarily like pink that much, I do feel that it is perfect for appropriate femming though! I will probably end up making a lot of outfits for her, she'll probably have more clothes than me at some point! I am still interested in the locking heel cuffs so I guess I'll be looking into those soon as well. I just realized this is basically a list of all the things I need to buy! I don't care I'm so excited about everything right now. It's almost like that point in the beginning of a relationship when you still get all giddy and butterflies in your tummy. It's so much fun and so cute!

I love getting pleasure out of such simple things. I also want a frilly diaper cover ! It would go over her plastic panties. I think I am going to have to upgrade her panties soon because they do not work as well as they should. I think the cute animal print panties will be better for the next purchase. They are larger for my coverage and I believe are thicker so that will be perfect!
I think Debbie may need a crib at some point. I have always been on the edge about the baby aspect of it, but I guess I will just succumb to it because evidently it goes had in hand with everything else I'm doing.



I'll be back soon, I cannot wait to update after tomorrrow!